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Friday, October 28, 2005

5:34 PM

braddellwestlake forever n more

it was a veri sad n symbolic day fer many of us.
esp wen the flag was being lowered.
fold n handed to mrs seah.
we are never gona c dat flag goin up side by side
with the national flag.
it was the last of it.
we sang our school song
IN WORD AND DEED
WITH PURPOSE AND DETERMINATION.
mrs seah cried wen giving her speech
the HODs n tchers hu are gona part with us
each said a few werds.
with dat few werds it made many of us teared.
tey were crying too.
as the flag was being lowered
we sang our school song
with pride fer the last time.
many was alreadi shaking n croacking
due to chock up tears.
it was a veri sad sight.
ms jas n cikgu bariyah was crying
with us.
shto shoulder.

we didnt sae aniting/

bt we no deep down we lurve each otha.

mr lim. wen he tok to otha sl.

he was alrite.

but wen it came to mi. he gt watery

n nearly teared.

we were close.

he wud msg mi in the middle of the nite to inform aniting.

earlie in the morning to rmind mi to rmind othas about duty

during lesson time to come n find him.

we are CLOSE.

our SPORTLEADER tcher.

never fail to have sumting fun fer the hols.

we wud njoy all out n at the end go eat prata.

afta dose track trainings.

he wud send mi home. or at least a ride to bishan.

hmmm..

oulder mr shahul. he tried to fake a smile infront of 3e3/
but failed. we saw the tears. held back.
we came up to him to sae tank u.
n gave him a small token.
the girls was alreadi weeping.
the boys hold their heads high up.
we wanted to sae a million things.
but we chocked everytime we tried to speak.

to fellow braddellwestlakers.
tanks fer the memories,
the support.
the EVERYTHING we share.
the buidling may be done soon.
but the motto the name the song.
the pride the EVERYTHING
will live on with us.
fer the rest of our life time.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

7:46 PM

Braddell-Westlake Secondary School

tomorrow is officially the last dae of
OUR braddell westlake school life.
coz on fridae, we will have a award ceremony.
n will be realeased earlie. wich fer the 1st time
im so nt looking foward to.
n so.. many tchers wont be following us
to gy next year.
we are gona part with dem 2mr.
n meet all of em fer the last time
during our farewell dinner on 2nd dec later.
i can feel the heatness nw.
its gona be another sad dae 2mr.

to all dose ppl hu are nt gona move wif us.
either transferring or goin back to ur homeland.
i wish u guys well n gud luck with ur long journey

IN WORD AND DEED,
WITH PURPOSE AND DETERMINATION

braddell westlake secondary school will leave on
FOREVER in my heart.

for tis place brings back many memories.
frm the funky welcoming seniors

the choatic bubbly 1e3 students

more matured n fun 2e3 students

the NOT-UR-ORDINARY-TEENAGERS of 3e3

also known as the CHAMPION

n nt forgetting the extra caring n dedicated
teachers. its been a wonderful 3 years.
THANK YOU to all of u.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

3:37 PM

misses

qimMY
misses
maiRAH

for all u ppl outher.
tis is the same SMALL lil
gal den was with mi
on 15th oct 2005
esplanade by the bay gig.
hehes. weee. shall go shopping.
her burfdae is cuming! dangs.
hehes.

yups. n salihin. danial (cuzin) n mairah
are one of the most craziest ppl on earth.
coz mi and salihin never seem to stop
bickering at each otha.
danial is always supportng mi.
n mairah. the peace maker.. hehes.
i lurve em LOADS!
(the ting dat i wana tell mairah is tis :
dan n i and our family is wearing
blue too!! heeshees. n ur family too?!)

wth. realting it back to my ec?
birbird or birbrd?
dangs.
hehes. we are FRENS>
nuthing more. dun wana have aniting more.
present is want im looking foward fer.

till den.
i heart YOU.

Monday, October 24, 2005

7:50 PM

rushing

rush like mad the whole dae.

school was BORING.

yesh. dat came frm mi.
hahas.. i noe i noe.
dats so NOT haqimah

weeee. did well fer combine humans.

considering i beat the 2 gals hu gt top in class.

weeee.

n english!! top 5!! like wth. (:
hehehs. tied with manda switheart. like weeee.

lets c. wad else. my L1R4 improved i tink.

just happie alrites?

MUHD SALIHIN BIN JUMA'AT,
nurhaqimah bte mohd khamin is here to sae
SORIE! dangs.

and also to

ABDUL KHALIQ BIN MOKHTAR
nurhaqimah bte mohd khamin here is
seriously sorie fer dat incident
i dint mean it. cmon. pls.
it was all done out of anger and irritations.
pls understand. n further more.
it was just a dae dat i was seriously inbad state.
im sorie!

Saturday, October 22, 2005

10:55 PM

PRIMARY SCHOOL FRENS

dangs.
we met at 3.30.
it suck at 1st.
serious.
den afta awhile.
gt rather irritated by.
the usual ppl.
nisha. aisyah. n murni!
wth. murni followed.
like.. sheesh. she isnt frm amkp.
she is frm mayflower.
wth.
i hate her.
she took aqhari away once.
dangs.
but i gt him back.
shhesssh.
den. blah blah blah.
went heeren.
den head to esplanade.
den hit the rooftop.
n crap there.
den buke kat bawah.
head back to far east.
they boys dissappered.
by then. nisha was with bf.
headed to far east.
n gt myself a new SKIRT.
brown short ones.
weeeee. lurve em.
ahhas. den gt rings. earrings.
wriststrap. all brown.
WASSUP QIMAH!
where is the pink?
hahas.sumwher der.

headed back to bishan.
left mi n noorratul
slack at coffee bean.
like duh. hahas.
had my caramel ice blended.
n cheese cake.
yumyum. (:
so we talked all nite.
hahahs.
discovered dat we are late.
we dash off fer the taxi.
hahas.
typical of us.
dangs.
n so yeah.
the boys are getting hotter.
n sorie.
no more boys. they are guys.
hahas..
so much taller.
more hot. character. n weeee.
so GEREK.
ahahas.
till den.
i dun like the 3 minahs.
sheeesh.
thick thick makeups.
ingatkan lawa? podah!
pi uh. main tepi longkang suda.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

4:45 PM

dangs.

tok to faisal.....
a real DANG.
first i was like.
DANG!- speechless-
hahas.
he asked if there is a
BLUR AND ROYAL family
part 2.
ahhas..
dah reunited back eh?
no no.
nt fully..
otw.
hahas..
DNT rocks my socks!
like yadadada.
hehes..
n A fer dat.
weeeee. can blief. eng too! sheesh..
my eyes is reallie swollen.
nt to crying.
but to duno wad.
onlie left eye.
sheesh.
had to put my spects on.
coz left eye VERI blur.
dangs.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

4:22 PM

ifah n i.
she can sing ohh so well.
n dance really well do.
dangs!

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far n i.
i heart far like many2!!
dang!

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my cuzin n i.
fiza n i.
ohh tis one..
i lurve her!!
weee!!
coz im taller!
n the fact dat she is my beloved cuzin!

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sarbinah n i.
ohh.. i miss dose daes.
wen we wud walk her home.
to her blk n slack der.
or her playground.
n tok so much.
shared so much.
dose study periods in june.
sheesh.
i miss her!

wait a min..
do u guys realise sumting?
m i tall?
or m i tall?
sheesh.

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rid n i.
one of the another best dancers ard!
sheesh!

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aceh n ucop.
erms.
dun ask mi wad tey are doin.
i tink.
aceh is berak-ing. n ucop jagekan pintu.
ahahs.
tis 2 siblings.

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one big happie family.

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i heart dem!
like many2 too!!
sheesh!
the past is behind us!
weee!

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ohhh..
my bestie..
the one i lurve the most.
hws dat?
sounds gud?
yeah.
anione interested?
look fer mi.
n i give u her no.
sheesh.,
hahas
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hw can we forget him?
someone rather impt fer the 2 of us.
tank u abg fer everything!!
since sec 1.
thru thick n thin!
gona mis u like hell!

I LURVE ALL TIS PPL LIKE HELL!

3:51 PM

GRADUATION 2005

sheesh.
i told myself.
i shud nt cry.
ahahs..
so i braved thru the video
still manage to laf..
was with firah mah.
hahahas.
den went singing the song
i still manage to smile
n take LOADS of pics.
later i update.
now spoil
sheesh.
den until.
weeeewitt!
she came to mi n hug mi
n said sorie
n told mi she loved mi.
sheesh
so touched!
seriously!!
n started to cry
dangs.
hahas..
den her clique started to cum ard
took pics
hugs n stuffs
ahahs..
sheesh
so happie.
i wonder hw issit fer mi next year.
under gyss.
hmmm...
well..
im gona try the photobucket again,
so.. tis is fer the moment.
i try to post the pics alrites.
cya!
muacks muacks!!
wait a min.

to all the graduates:
study hard.
strive fer the best.
always aim fer the stars.
n i lurve u guys!

eerms. later at nite. i write about a story
kies?
brb.

Monday, October 17, 2005

5:56 PM

sheesh

been editing pics the whole dae.

weee.

hmm..

its fun.

taking more pics and editing more of em.

shall continue to do blogskins like soon.

sheesh..

since xams are over.

dang.

ive gt sumting FOR YOU.
Apakah, itu semua sudah hilang?
Hilang di alam yang tidak terperi?
Hilang di alam yang tidak ternyata.
Hilang terus di alam dunia ku ini.

Apakah itu semua sudah berakhir?
Akhir dengan sekelip mata?
Akhir dengan tiada diundangi?
Akhir dengan byk tanda Tanya.

Kuat kah aku?
Untuk mengahrungi semua ini?
Melihat kau mencari kebahagiaan?
Melihat kau pergi?
Melihat si dia di sisimu?

Permulaanya sangat ku undangi
Permulaannya sangatlah indah
Permulaannya adalah suatu misteri
Permulaannya akhirnya menjadi suatu tragedi

Adakah itu dinamakan takdir?
Ataupun ia dikenali lebih sebagai maut?
Ohh.. itu lah yang di namakan nasib.

done by qim.
edited by lovely humairah.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

12:14 AM

major.

it happen.

rite before my eyes.

i cried n cried n cried.

n i cried even more.

i dun wana go madr tomorrow.

fer he is there.

haiz.
close the curtains....

weeeee..
had fun at esplanade.
met my beloved cuzin
izyan at city hall..
made our wae to sakura
to get our foods..
and off we go to esplanade.
break fast by the bay..
n was rite on time
had fun singing along.
n humairah was late.
so yeaps..
had fun.
blah blah blah.
took ALOT of pics.
like crazy.
i miss humairah!
weeee..
went rooftop to take their pics.
and onlie to be farted by salihin.
major birbird i shud sae.
newae.. got him irritated by calling him
SLENGEH BACIN
weeee..
there u go salihin.
njoy.
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dats mi just 5 mins before buke.

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izyan n i.

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dun ask mi wad is dan doin. but dats dem. the sunset bld boys.

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dats dem on stage.weeee.

broken hearted.
shattered hopes.
u r all dat ive eva dream fer.
now ure gone.

to my cuzin.
hus isnt far apart.
so near yet so far.
having a veri close name to mine.
with onlie 2 letters apart.
n mine with the H behind.
heys.
its alrites.
must admit dat ido lurve u.
just dat.
i dint show.
n der wasnt ani room fer mi to show.
those bitching ard stufs are nw far behind us.
so.. lets start a new beginning.
muacks! lurve u.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

1:10 AM

hide and seek

he hides.
and i seek.

but if i hide.
will he seek?

im tired of seeking
each time he hides.

tired of waiting fer u
knowing u wud never cum

but wen sumting happens like tis.
beep beep*pretend dat dats the msg alert tone.

u msged.
we tok on the fone.

from pass midnite.
till morning dew.

tokking like we belong together.
the next moment

u disappered again.
i tried to seek.

but i lost.

so as i was about to move on.
u appear out of thin air.

wad m i supposed to do?
i gt stuck right there and den.

if its all over.
tell mi straight.

so i can move on.
and dun appear back again.

i nid justice.
freedom.
and a choice of life.
now..give mi liberation.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

10:51 PM

MENTALLY TIRED.
EMOTIONALLY TIRED.
PHYSICALLY TIRED.

MENTAL BREAKDOWN.
EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN.
PHYSICALLY GONA BREAK APART.

MENTALLY SICK.
EMOTIONALLY SICK.
PHYSICALLY SICK.

I NID YOU TO HOLD MI TOGETHER.
I NID UR LOVE.
I NID UR PROTECTION.
I NID UR LOVE.
I NID YOU!

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

1:22 AM

lets mug

MUGGING. (:
hahas.
left with dnt. bio.
sitting fer my hist paper
in appor. 6 hours frm now.
wich is at 8 oclk later.
hmm..
m mugging..
kindda lost in hist.
coz the subj was taught like
the 1st half of the year?
n tey are asking us to take the paper.
hmmm.. hitler hitler hitler..
japan's defeat.
germany's political issues..
grrrrrr....
so much stufs.
BIO. DNT!!!
argh..
another 2 subjs dat require
loads and loads of memorisation.
argh.. exhausted.
all the energy's been used up fer
the 1st week of exams.
wad have i gt now to kip mi goin?
u? ahhas. .rite..
toodles. gona mug till 2.30am.
and poooofff...
off i go to bed.
waking up at 5 to sahur..
weeee. (in a pathetic wae)

Sunday, October 09, 2005

10:32 PM

tributes

lets c.
wana tank..
1st person.
hazril..
weeeee.. tanks fer being there both times.
cud have just faited..
hahas.. went pale like ive seen a ghost.
fyra.. my beloved one and only best fren.
den to all like.
danial. azhar. xinyan. victor. salmah.
noorratul. arin. khaliq. liwen.
benjamin. noraini. kakak.
and many many more..
weeeewits.
k bought new pair of shoes frm
charles and keith.!!
hahas..
so nice..
mum wanted to get mi 2 pairs..
but being a gud gal and a stupid one at the same time..
i said i dint want..
how birbird is dat?
veri birbird..
hahas..
i noe.
full stop.
weeeeee.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

6:03 PM

low-

my body systems gona be down in no time.
been sneezin whenever's possible.
eyes been swollen since ages.
its like i just cried the nite before fer hours.
wen seriously..
ive gt no time to even tink fer myself.
and to sae cry?
ive gt no time.
yet its swollen like nobody's business.
voice is like half gone?
playing hide and sick with mi.
my whole body seems to be aching.

i noe.. ure gona to tell mi to slp earlie.
but i cant afford to slp earlie.
lets c. i start at 4 pm. stop at 6.30.
prepare fer breakfast.
and off i go to terawih.
onlie to reach home at 10.
starts to study till 12..
and of to slp.
wakes up at 5 to sahur.
and never get back to slp.
coz i continue frm there..
c my daily routine nw?
haiz.
veri tired.. feeling veri sick.
WEAK.
but shall just endure..
till im done.
ss paper was like so fun!
hahas..
coz i onlie focus on protestants catholics and seperation and merger..
and dats the 2 topics dat reallie came out.
tank my lucky star..
no no..
tank ALLAH..
alhamdullilah..
weeee..

terawih..
weeee//
if feels so gud to go terawih..
meeting up with old frens.
like nadiah..azhar..
fairul.. akmal...
and more of dose blahs..
hahsa..
it'll be my daily routine.
insyallah.
weeeee

Monday, October 03, 2005

5:38 PM

just about

well.. started of exams with a high note..
she as in MRS TANG a.k.a MUFFINS.
came up to mi and said..
u did well..
uve gt 69.8 fer CA2 eng.
i was like..
er.. can i get the o.2 in order to get an A?
hahas..
kk..
lemme just sae sumtings INDIRECTly.
just as about happiness was about to sip mi thru again.
u came back.
was dat a gud sign?
or the other wae round?
just as about another person entered my life..
trying to enjoy life with him
u have to entered rite there and den to destroy?
just as about mi being happie again..
u stand there..
wanting to be accepted back?
no doubt.
i still love u.
but..
m nt gona return back to ur arms..
cry in ur chest.
feel ur heartbeat..
ur warmth..
coz.. i cant c myself hurting the new person
i just cant.. nt the wae u have hurt mi.
nt the wae.. u left mi in a lurch..
m never gona do dat to him..
coz i noe it hurts so much.
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yesh..
we did have 'dinner's
with maths books ard us/
but i never tot it wud lead us further.
i cant..
u noe i cant..
stop hurting urself..
and move on.
it was just maths dat evolves round mi at dat moment.
never thot ur stares.. ur gaze..
wud mean so much..
coz i thot it was just maths between us
tank u.. fer dose 'maths' sessions
over dinner..
cuming over to kfc at braddell thou u
just reached home..
m sorie..
the 2 whom was at kfc with us..
tey mite want to continue further..
but i just dun c us being there..
im so sorie..
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i dun want ppl hu molests..
holds on to my no.
therefore..
if he were to eva ask u fer my no.
plz..
plz..
plz..
im begging..
dun..id rather die..
knowing he is in the same examination hall wif mi.
at that veri moment..
frightens mi.
always on the lookout..
always on the run.
just dun want to bump into him again.
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sorie to fahmie..
i cant give..
just gud luck fer ur N levels..
and do well..
dun tink bout mi..
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hmm..
diff colours to diff ppl.
i hope my msg here is being conveyed to dem the wae it is supposed to be
but nt to hurt dem in ani wae.