lets see.
for the past 5 days.
my life seem wonderful for a second.
hehhh.
on monday, 25th.
had my maths common test.
came earlie to school.
and afta papers met zylla.
like finally.
to have a very late lunch slash bitching session.
afta 2567541576237 ions years!


on wednesdae, 27th.
i was at the national library.
almost the whole dae.
till we walked to suntec.
to also only realise,
that i was on the 2nd level starbucks.
im sorry if i stirred up emotions.


on thursday, 28th.
met mr ** at 8am to study,
thou he was down with fever.
we studied for both papers
almost all the way together.
we got tired sumhw. heees (:
slack with wanzhen afta school.
but it was about mr ** the whole day.
afta wich he sent me home.


on friday 29th.
i worked in the morning.
tired like shit.
rushed home. and left again at ard 7pm.
to town, hiphop hurray at esplanade.
it was sort of a double date.
but the only diff was that none, are attached.
the stars of the day , zylla and her date. qim and mr **.
we had so much fun.
we again were like sumwher ard suntec.
gosh, dont ask me whye suntec. but yaa.
and the foursome took 162 home.
that bitch also known as my bestfren,
nurjazzylla just had to cry in the bus.
she was being very sorrie for like
almost neglecting me in the accounts of haziq ard.
she noes she suck but hu cares. i love her like ALOT.
mr ** sent me home again.
only that this time, it was much sweeter. (:


on saturdae, 30th.
i worked with zy and syazwan.
we had so much fun.
omgomg.
you shud just see us going crazy.
and there were like 15 cute ass ard laaa.
hahahahs.
they were outside the railings.
all just looking in.
and i was the only one working.
coz it was at bloody 730am this morning.
hahahahs. okay shuddup.
then mr ** fetched me.
and accompanied me all the way to yishun.
lalalalalalaa.
he was being very nice not to bully me.
okay toodles.
i cant wait for madrasah tomorrow.
so much to share. rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
:D

we did drop by suntec starbucks.
we dint slack there thou.
but we slack at another starbucks.
we were there till almost 930.
miracles dint happen then.

goodnite now.
shrughs//

okay, im at national library studying.
wanzhen keep hinting suntec's starbucks.
only for a reason.
rahhhh.


the three people that i love.
nur jazzylla norazam.
huang wanzhen.
salmah harris.


i truly uberly love them okay!
rahhh``

rahhhhh`

okay im having exams like now.
and its alrite laaaaa.
lalalalalalalaaaaaaaa.

people have been just far too irritating for me to tahan.
they are practically breathing down my neck okay.
and yesyes, sunflowers are pretty sweeet!
okay, im the sunflower girl who loves to smile! :D

met up with shazali for a mini dinner at town.
hahahahs. so much to share.
and he is like a big brother to me
talking bout hafiz and all.
hahahas.
okay, i finally blurt out his name here.
well, shazali says its alrite and stufs.
bout again? till wen right? shrughs laaa.
and for the past week,
kept bumping into shazali.
and we tok and slack alot all of a sudden.
hahahahs. its weird but who cares :D
rahhhhhhh``

im happy the way i am.
if only its januarynow.
1st january, the day i said yes. (:

Mr ** surprised me with flowers ; SUNFLOWER!

ignore that post now.
i came sch at ten.
first thing i bump into was
-insertnamehere-
i cudnt concentrate then.
he was wearing a yellow tee.
and that green adidas bag.
bleahs.
the memories.
that picture that kips me smilling.
its in my pink wallet!

lets see.
i miss the way you'd stare at me wen i do sumthing rong.
i miss the way you pinch wen im wrong.
i miss the way you tickle and bite my ears.
i miss the way you blow down and whisper i love you into my ears.
i miss the way we could hug in the middle of nowher.
just hugging each otha tight and not wanting to let you go.
i miss the way you'd rub your nose wen its itchy.
i miss the way you sae you'd want to freeze your nose.
i miss the time when you just watch me sleep.
just stroking every strand of hair out of my eyes.
i miss the way you'd carry my crumpler bag.
fuck. i miss everything bout us.
so shuddup qim.
i told you im confused.
//shrughs.

You are under considerable stress and you are almost about to 'blow your top' but you are fortunate enough to be able to exert control. Control is the name of the game and it is so good to realise that whatever the situation may be a this time - it will pass. You need to get away from everything for a while and if you do, you will find that, strangely enough, it will seem that most of your problems and situations will seem to wash away, just as the sea may wash away 'footprints' in the sand.



You are a true extrovert, frivolous and outgoing. You need to feel in control of any situation. If matters are not proceeding according to plan you tend to get extremely irritable and perhaps become difficult to live with.



You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship. You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.



You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.



You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realise those dreams and to turn them into reality.

QIM ; no strings attached, non.

on saturdae at 4pm. qim was working at kiosk, 2nd level.
and so her afternoon started like this :


** ; hey, i got surprise for u. wad if i sae im at coffeebean now?
qim ; reallieeeeeeeeeeee? i dun blief you!
** ; do you think im lying?
qim ; then wher are you now?
** ; i just waslked pass you.
qim ; wait! not fair. dint get to see you!
** ; i wait for you till you finish work ok?
qim - (again she started smilling like shit! hahahahahahahahas!)

heeeeeeeeeeees!
i tink now my entry will be filled with
all our conversation. between qim and mr **
hahahahhas. mr -starstar-

im off to orchard to meet mr ** now!
heeeeeeees. ok world!
im happie like shit!
buhbye! :D

** ; faster finish your lesson le
qim ; you cum here shoot this lecturer laaa. anyways, whye?
** ;im chillin at mac.
** ; im waiting fer you uhs.
qim ;you're wif hu?
** ;im alone. heees!



qim turns to wanzhen showing her brightest smile!
haaaaaaaas! :D
** finish class at THREEE. and i finish class at SIXXXXXX!

there was alot of IF ONLY.
if only we did meet on thurs.
if only we did meet on tues.
if only things were diff.



well,
i dint regret anything i do.
:D lets learn how to smile!

its OVER (again)

shrughs//