im in a mess.
a terrible one.
look at my eyes.
i feel drowsy.
very faint.

fuck!
im gonna say everything here.
and i dont care if the whole world knows.
if youre sick and tired of my FRIENDS being against you.
whye did you have to go out with other girls.
dint you make a PROMISE.
dint you want to prove to them sumthing?
and im sick and tired of having to give in.
having to find out stuffs, which hurts me.
having to cry everytime im hurt.
and to pull myself back up.
its not easy hadi.
and thus i need friends.
they pull me back right up.
even zylla, hw ever much she hates you,
she still pull me back right up.
right up to where you want be to be.
always having to tell myself,
that everything would be okay.
but fuck, nuthing is okay hadi.
nuthing at all. having to go thru sleepless nights.
having to tell myself that trust is all i need.
and to trust you to everything that gives me nightmares.
just how many times have you said sorry and yet you still repeat the same thing?
just how many times we had the conversation about us pulling thru all odds.
but my one bestfriend going against you, you cant even prove her wrong anymore.
throw it in her face.
tell her youre ntg but the best for me.
tell her you stop all your shits for me.
tell her that you love me and not anyone else.
tell her you want to be the one residing in my heart forever.
and if you cant tell her all this,
tell me now, and we'll have to reconsider.
i duno where i stand in you.
i duno what am i to you.
i wish that you tell me that in your one and only.

Cheer up qim (:

Me love you (:


- Amelia. Lovelove.

keep the faith.
faith is putting trust in what you know to be true.
even when you dont see it with your eyes.


how very true.
i need a nike bottle, anoybody!

its fucking devastating i tell you.
(btw, im not referring to ENCHANTED.)


i'll take it all in my stride.
see me smile(:

i finally got my dosage of boyfriend.
and we watched enchanted last night.
movie was at 930pm at woodlands.
and we were from school.
it's freaking awesome!
and it goes on happily ever after.
typical fairytale, but its very sweet.
the power of true love's kiss.


i'll be your princess forever and ever(:

You draw love.
You paint my life.
The colours you add shines my world.


BABYYLOVE, YOURE THE ONLY ONE MY HEART BEATS FOR.
:D

i haven been shouting for very long now.
so here me scream people!


I MISS MY BOYFRIEND!
I HAVEN BEEN SEEING HIM FOR FIVE DAYS NOW.
THANKGOD WE'RE MEETING FOR DINNER LATER.
IF NOT, YOU'LL SEE ME DEAD IN MY BEDROOM.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH!


I MISS MY BESTEST TOO!
LAST TIME I MET HER WAS ON MONDAY.
AND SHE JUST CHOSE TO SLEEP ON ME.
BUT I GOT TO ADORE HER WHILE SHE SLEEPS.
SO ITS PRETTY MUCH OKAY.


and periods are not to my likings like seriously.
i'll still jump around now.
:D

KICK BALLS!
:D


im in class.
eating pokky like nobody's bizness.
pink diary are much LOVES.

i was walking to school this morning.
with wanzhen, muks, and keith.
(mind you, we were already twenty minutes late for class)
keith was telling me with love written all over on his face.
about this girl named jessica.
how they have been dating
and how very much keith wanted to express love to her.
very cliche.
so one fine evening
they were in the train home.
pretty lil jessica said she was cold,
my very dear keith when to ask,
" will holding your hands help "
(i'll tell keith that you said he is stupid)
and jessica simple replied
" erms, i donch know "
by the time he finished this line,
i was cursing him and screwing him like shit.
first he waited for veryvery long to even go out with her.
now when he is out with her, this girl said she is cold.
what did my very dear keith did?
hahahahahahs. omggg.


sometimes in life, when things are pretty unpredictable,
follow the instincts of your heart.
you'll never go wrong.
dont let go when youre in doubt.
hold on by believing that love happens for a reason.


the fact about jessica having to leave in january
to australia for her studies affected keith alot.
what are the odds of your true love leaving?
what are the chances that the love youre holding on to now is true?
i was asked just that.
i couldnt say anuthing.
i haven thot deep enough.

raaahhh`


im having my dinner at zy's tonight.
after 12897856324617816 ion years!
:D damn excited! (:
and i haven been seeing boyf.
sulks//

just wen i wanted to blog about everything.
i opened up the present BESTEST gave me.
and i couldnt stop crying after that.
and i cant call her straight away coz im chocking with tears.
NUR JAZZYLLA!
what are you thinking?
i hate it that I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH!
:D


my seventeen burfdae was good.
the celebration flowed thru the saturday too.
i was so wobbly when i woke up in the morning.
headed to school in a pretty white dress(:
; ive got laureen to thank for this!
upon reaching yck mrt station, my very dear classmates
started flooding me with chocolates, all the way right to school.
i was aslp in maths lecture as my head was very heavy.
and to only wake up when the lecture really ended.
and to find out HADI was in my lecture to surprise me with
another lighted candle and duno wht custard thing uhs.
wanzhen waited outside lecture with a cake.
FRUITCAKE. real juicy fruits. all because i was sick,
and im not ALLOWED to consume chocolates.
gahhhhh.
headed to mac for the cakes.
AME WANZHEN HADI JENMARK.
damn happy uhs.
took alot of poloraid pictures.
;ive got alot of thankyous to boyf later.
headed to vivo after school,
catch a movie and dinner.
and home pretty late.
on saturday, when down to catch zylla's dance competition.
and PEOPLE, MY BESTEST WAS SHININH LIKE A STARRR! :D
WANZHEN HADI AND I
running around town holding hands.
i just felt so happy.
imagine us running from far east all the way
to heeren to dine at NYDC.
i was in a prettypretty grey dress.
slack there for pretty long and then to cineleisure.
somehow we had SOOO MUCH FUNN THERE! (:


thankyou dear boyfriend for everything.
the midnight surprise with mini cupcakes.
and the very pretty mirrow all done by yourself.
the surprise when i was in lecture.
the FRUITcake. the veryveryveryvery nice puzzle of
many picture perfect moments.
the poloraid pictures. for everything that you did.


thankyou wanzhen for being hadi's right hand.
for doing all the co planning.
for lying to me the whole day.
thankyou for the smiles you draw on me.


thankyou bestest for the best gift ever.
i can just sit the whole day to watch it over and over and over again.
not to mention the crying part too.
fcking awesome.
TRUE FRIENDS, YOURE HERE TILL THE END.


special thanks to ;
maria for the sunflower.
jana for the perlini's.
azreeen for the gift a name.
kho and ideeen for ms SUNSHINE.
fina for perlini's.
salmah for the very pretty card.
my butterfly girls for the pretty dangling decoration.
seri and liyana for the rose and poooh.
and all the well wishes.


gahhhhh. i had alot of fun!
thankyou EVERYONE.
HADI WANZHEN AND ZYLLA.
I LOVE YOU THREE LIKE NUTS.
LIKE BIGBIGBIGBIGBIG THANKYOU FOR EVERYTHING.
NOTHING IN THE WORLD IS PERFECT.
BUT IVE GOT THE THREE OF YOU TO MAKE EVERYTHING
PERFECT FOR ME. MUCHHH LOVES!
:D

midnight, hadi(: called.
he was at my doorstep.
with mini cupcakes and a lighted candle.
made my wish and blew it off.
thankyou baby.


my day barely started, and ive collected ALOT
of chocolates frm my classmates! (:


mind you, was so sick ytd that i cud barely get out of bed.
thankgod i feel much betta todae.
i feel very wobbly thou (:


thankyou everyone for the well wishes.
i'll update again 2mr! :D

lalalaaaa.
i had my first burfdae song sang to me on board the ship.
damn damn damn damn cooool!
and sister got me this frreaking awesome pretty SWATCH watch.
all the way from japan. :D


okayy. ive got work on tuesday and wednesdae.
and other days, im free for birthday treats.
huahahas.
work's been funn.
apart from it being VERY TIRING.
very nice place uhhhs.


wishes do come true.
well i really hope they do.

lalalalaa.
everyone shopping for their prom stuffs.
omgomgomg.
it reminds me of the shopping i had.
damn funn.
hahahas :D


and ytd i acc a fren to get his prom suit.
veryyyy MAT i tell you.
with his very ahbengg coloured hair.
the perfect combination of a stress reliever.
none other than the CLOWNN.
hahahahas.


i miss MISSBESTFRIIEND!
i miss MYBOYFRIEND!
gaaaaahh. i wana see both of them nyehs!

ytd i watch GAMEPLAN at 2130 hours.
with hadi.
its sumthg i know i wud enjoy like totally.
hahahahs
:D


zylla baby. im sturbborn only for a reason.
and i love you alot, and dat never changes.


im a different girl when i woke up this morning.
see me breeeze. i'll be okay after today.


gonna shop for wanzhen's bdae present todae.
lalalalaaaa.

3rd post for the day.
hadi's smell lingers on my cardigan.
alot of it.
:D

i finally manage to watch LOVE IS CINTA.
over at hadi's place.
so muchhh for a sad ending.
hahahahs.
it wasnt happily ever after either.
also it wasnt as good as what ppl were saying
and i see a need to watch
GAME PLAN. hint hint. to those who owe
me a movie date. hurryyy nehs.
even darling wanzhen owes me a movie date.
how tragic. huahahahhas.


i'll be there to watch you.

bestfriend?
i really wonder.
missing AGAIN.
2 years now.
she'll be missing again
once NOVERMBER SIXTEEN is ard.
wtfuck?
fucking selfish i tell you.

i had a big tub of yami yogurt all for myself.
and i bought apple strudel last night.
(laureen made me spend!)
am having it for breakfast with wanzhen.


please dont leave me in despair ever again.
coz it means that i'll eat like ALOT.
hahahahahahas :D


ps ; the apple strudel damn nice uhhhhs!