shaf ; i miss your smile, voice and kecohness. dont be sick coz i miss sunflower girl, becoz she can make me senyum.

kak dee ; kak dee loves you too coz you always makes her smile ( sometimes she dont show it )

badot ; if ever you feel demoralised happy high or just want to cry, i'll be here. i might be busy w school, w gigs, but you do knw tht im always here for you. i dont want my sweet girl to be sadd, cmon, show me that smile that makes many melt.

now you tell me the reason why i should not smile.
just loook at 3 of the many others.
gahhhhhhhhh, im sooo high thankyou.
f touchhhhed laaaaa. i shant frown.
nor hide my smile anymore !
muchlove, xoxo !

i went out to study for 2 hours.
( im lying, so ignore me )
of all places, admiralty mac.
thankyou secret friend for the bitchfest!
todayy, i feel happy.
( another lie ! )
but towards the end.
pretty nice laaa.
ive nicenicenice friends.
somehow, sometimes i get abit too reserved,
to telling them that they actually mean a whole lot to me.
to telling them that heyy, i really love you, yknw.
oky so here goes to all my friends.
i love you like reallyreally i do !
hehhhhhh, ( damn shy now ! )
ive got LOVERGIRL, LB, GF, KAK DEE and SHAF BUNNY !
:D

abit depressed for 2 secs.
i took all the courage, and did the texting.
tht was the only thing i could do.
dyou knw it hurts to read
your day's summary, spend ohh so happily.
yet it hurts much more to see you crumble
and fall apart, i need you to smile.
and again, the smile is worth many heartaches to heal.
i pulled thru last night.
i hoped i manage to pull you guys thru the rough patch too.
well, many wishes upon the shooting star,
now that you both are oky.
please be happy and put on a smile for me.

i had so muchh fun.
oky here goes.
ytd was sakae sushi with my kak dee.
pictures will be up by tnite i promise.
hahahahahaha.
we had so much funn just making our way to wheelock.
especially the underground pass frm orchard mrt.
plenty of things to do and write and bitch.
andand, the part where someone puked outside sakae.
we were watching the entire show.
when ppl walk pass, those who realised
and avoided that patch or those who walk right thru it.
so muchhh fun !
then next was the night at esplanade.
-insertsALOTofwordshere-
today was suppose to stay home and be lazy.
hadi called for lunch.
met him at amk for PepperLunch.
then headed town and spinelli for hot girls.
hahahahahaha, i manage to capture a picture of him
being 'extra hot and soft '.
againnn pictures up later.
with hadi, met mum at youth park for
our mini spree of flea market.
over there i gt myself two belts,
two tops. two bags and jeans.
mum got herself shades and bags.
hadi left supposedly for work only
to returned as he wanst on duty today.
how stupid. hahahahahahha :D

[ leggings and white tops are hot stuff ! ]
see you in school ! (:

i'll get back to you once ive thot of one.
mean time, we'll make do.
( i feel like crying, fuck shit )
anyways. i need to smile.
so here goes, lacylacy yellow bra w ribbon.
shortshort white dress with a twisted ankle.
hahahahahaha, yes. and i was filled w plenty of chocs.
thankyou girls (:

i had a horrible night.
i cried after so long.
i dint see this coming.
i hope it'll be oky soon.
i dread the outcome.

i'll have a good day tmr.
i'll eat sakae and party the night out.
i'll have fun teaching them spelling.
and making them spell numbers and days.
cikgu qim ! :D

its been a really crazy week.
i started w thurs and friday.
club crawl. had so much fun.
oky maybe for the fact that we skipped lessons and all.
to just play st socca the whole entire day.
funnn kan.
afterwich on thursday, we went tpy for dinner.
w my happy pills. :D
i had to do full shift work on saturday.
but then headed to beach road for a mini supper w sister.
and friend frm msia. damn kecohh.
went to clarkequay and boatquay.
saturday night, damn high and alive.
hahahah.
sunday was muchhh love.
i scored the first goal.
nyehhhhehhehehe.
den i played keeper the last game !

 

my first day of school was a blast !
first someone* surprised me with burgerking breakf.
with a note saying, breakf is the most impt meal
of the dayy, just hw much i needed to be reminded.
hahahahahs.
after that along my way to classes and lectures,
there were so many familiar faces, it felt so good.
be it the year 2&3. the freshmans and everyone else.
especially the ogls, just shouting across blks to say hello.
it was so colourful.
just before soccer,
at the locker there was a rose.
a rose with my name on it.
veryveryvery sweet right?
the girls said ive a secret admirer !
gahhhhhhh. even coach want a piece of application form,
for god knws wht. hahahahahs.
andand, they said the short hair is better!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D


tuesday was just as crazy.
met many more ogls, the canteens were terrible.
but someone gave me a cookie cakie.
a bigbig one, of my favourite cookie.
another very nice gesture.
lalalalaaaaa, whn the world twirls.
i wished it was just for us.
you never had a clue.


ive no lesson tdy technically it being a wednesday!
total yeayness.
and im goin to slp now.
i knw its just past midnight.
ive been cranky.
i need a goodnight and goodmorning msg.
ive told you once /:

they colour my life.
and im sure for that.
we'll see each other every sunday i hope.
or at least, i want too.
i went to chop my hair of nearby.
shidadadada accompanied me.
then to do some visiting.
i got her sunflower and white roses.
chocolates and story book.
shaf, well i hope thts enuff to last you
till the next time i visit you oky?
we had so much fun,
well i for one had so much fun watching
flightplan with all of them.
quoted frm somewhere ,
( you should see her reactions watching flightplan ) HAHA !
oky, how nice of her to comment sucha thing.
i was like watching some scary movie shouting and closing eyes.
dont laf at me, they already did all the laffing.
hahahahahaahha.

anyways, tmr is the first day of school.
not that im excited. but more of my short hair.
i haven got the time to experiment w the wax and all.
lalalalaaa, i shall enjoy school while i still can.
and my whole week is already taken up.
ahh gahhhhh, i need time for myself.
-.-

see the new hair, thankyou verymuch, smudged eyeliners.


wht else but that classic pose. huahahahaha


<3 i love you guys yaw !

yknw.
i just realised.
there are a handful of ppl tht i would drop anything im doing, to just be there whenever they need a hug. ive a bestfriend that i miss terribly. ive my candygirl who is always always being extra positive. to hold me up when i cry, infact to stay extra silent until im done crying. giving me hard cold stares asking me whats wrong.
ive my NFL ( new found loves ) shaff shidadadada and ayu. being at the other end of the line almost everytime. to just hear me rant and then asking me to show them my smile, telling me its alrite to think too much, but i gotta stop that very minute.
ive infact my nadia(h) and zee to show me their world and tell me, qim be happy.
norhakim, being my bitch with his very lame stupid comments on everything.
maria too with her forever giving me, ahhh dont give up on life just yet.
and my dearest babylove, who is very patient and understanding.

dear all, if ever one very fine day.
maybe not today not tmr but someday.
you need a hug or just someone to listen out for you,
im here, always a call away.
you guys are very close to my heart.
and without any doubt, i love you guys.

and miss bestfriend, if youre reading this.
i miss you so much that i cant say anything but stay silent.
text me whn ure free, at least for lunch.


and presenting to you the people closest to the heart :D

dearest lovergirl, wanzhen(:

darling dearest boyf(:

shidadadadada(:

shafff bunny(:

hakim my bitch(:

areyou ayu(:

twinnie ohh twinnie(:

adahhh(:

zeee(:

nadia(:

extracted frm fil's blog.
should i keep chasing the pavement
even if it leads to nowhere?

lets sit and think thorougly.
thankyouverymuch.

im minutes away before being on stage.
amelia is sucha sweetheart.
drying my hair, doing it all up.
:D

thankyou sweetheart.
wanzhen love, hehhhhhh for always being there :D
and for all the wishes,
thankyou :D

yknw what. ive too many names to mention.
but to everyone, everyone that text me
early in the morning or minutes before i got on stage
thankyou so muchh, i'll prolly faint or die
if i dun have you guys. i had fun today.
i'll do a proper update on tdy sooon w pics oky.
mean time, with as much love i can offer,
iloveyou guys laaa !

but before that.
very irritating shidadada.
each time i wana update,
youre done updating, w pics.
so i might as well not update kan?
huahahahahahahahaha, bfgf.

shidadada and dee woke me up.
asked me out for lunch.
they came to yishun fr ljs.
and decided we're off to see hot guys.
( shidada dee qimm, hot guys, HAHAHAHAH )
took posters at suntec
( we dint even wait for the boys la! )
went to pool at marina sq.
sucks balls, had so muchhh fun.
im not saying anything but yeahhh.
they made me forgt the misery of last night.
then head to lavender,
dee's gf came along.
watched the very -insertswordhere- match at jln besar stadium.
i cant even shout laaaa.
the field and sky was wehhhh, damn nice !
the annoying old uncle shouting was sucha pest.
and to beach road with baby and his kakis.
he cab me home. ( reasons for cabbing, he dirtied his white berms, he's right leg was bandaged thus it hurts to yknw board the train and the buses )
( baby, all these are just excuses laaa ! )


hehhh, i was caught !

they were watching the match, while i stoned away.

( currently im voiceless, dont bother calling me )
yknw what.
i shall mark out on calendar.
it was damn shitty.
being very sick doesnt help.
i had teaching at ftpy.
afterwich baby was suppose to fetch me.
2 mins before reaching me,
2 junctions before mine,
he got into an accident.
it freakeddddddddddddddddd me out.
( i couldnt find the junction actually )
until i took a cab to school.
i saw his bike and that carrrr !
im not telling you anything more.
im not telling you how stupid my day was.
im not telling you how exactly i freaked out.
hahahahahahahs.
only shaf and shidadadada knws bout it.
we had a mini lepak session with donuts and icelemontea (redbull sesat !)
i found a true friend, thankyouverymuch !

BABY, YOU DONT KNW HW MUCH YTD KILLED ME.
BUT I NEED YOU TO KNW THAT I LOVE YOU OKY !


[ SH ; youre holding on. does it even make any sense if i were to decide ? ]

this is where i bitch.
so you have no say.
well i just have a lil smtg to comment.
we each have different points of view.
we each have our own rights to rant and bitch.
why does it bother you what i say?
dint we both agree, we shud not let our world crumble becoz of a bitch?
being the talk of the town.
isnt it smtg old and mundane.
its not new, its smtg that one have to live with.
so might as well.
whats your f problem.
putting up a fake front then?
i really dont understand.
you get very frustrated as most of your friends knw me.
issit a sin, or issit ego?
fuck you, fuck off !

i'll shut up nw.
i really will.
watch me !

i shall repeat right from the title.
FOR THE FIRST TIME,
ive ntg to blabber about.
hahahas. prolly coz im very tired.
its 4.37am
and why am i up?
i was toooo hungry to get to sleep.
( that was just an excuse )

anyways, ( i think im gonna start blabbering already )
ive too memorize at least 3/4 of my emcee script.
and KC and i, we're lacking of chemistry.
hahahahs, the seniors were all suggesting to lock us up in the room and all,
we ought to start making out and so on. i was telling dem, prolly inside the room,
after too much talking( qim doing the talking ), i'll get tired and i'll die and decompose, as KC would be too boring, or that he'll not entertain me at all.
and thus they wont have any emcee. so they decided against it. hahahahaha.

random shit ass.
i had a date ! :D
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