yeahh, she did that :D

time now is eight thirty eight.
im in school, doing my presentation in awhile.
meanwhile, i show you the things we do.



she is on msn, and erms busy taking her own pictures. :D



WEHHHHHHHHH ^^


wait, its my turn to do presentation ! x:



i'll be right back !:D

Often we find it hard to put our feelings into words. We all desire to be loved and we desire to be told we are loved

its been fivedays.
i realise i haven got around to do anything bout it.
be it the contacts in the fone, the msgs, even the blog, the tiny part which has
i love ___.
i told you, i haven thot about it. It haven really got into me yet, but i think im just fine. i really dint realise tht youre actually gone. thts the only reason why i haven been affected. see my point now? you were never actually here in the first place. im sorry, but tht line somewhat suck, but its really true. i cannot relate alot of things to you. now im thinking of the nice things / stuffs / events / times that we had together. there werent much. not that i regret anything, just that,i could count them not even needing both hands. i especially tried to remember smtg very sweet or nice tht happen, but nothing comes to mind. it cannot be tht bad, i knw, but really i cant think. and i swear 31stdecember2007 / 1stjanuary2008
could have been better. it was pretty plain. im sorry again that its all out here. but i just needed you to knw. im not throwing anything back to your face, but reality suck. and no im not just another one of those prettyface. im really sorry. im not even close to that. i dont like the fact tht it all came to nothing, we started way back in december. its been 6 mths, there isnt smtg for me to hold on to.not even my favourite flower zzzzt/: sometimes in life, we love and we learn. lets not hold on for too long, we take everything in our stride.

ps ; your burfday could have been better, if you cooperate.


on a better note, imissGF too much.
i wanawanawana see my happypills.
its been too long tht ive been going on w/o them.
im happy being ard them, dont you ever qn me.
hello GF this is for you.
lalalalalaaaa,
i wana see you ohh so badly.
im skipping work on sunday.
so i cant skip work on friday.
but sundaysundaysunday, we better have a good dayout.
thts a promise?
ily GF ((:

Love is a state of mind which has nothing to do with the mind.

The reason why i go to school ((:
( more of like the things i do in school )


after a long day, lets take a peep !



she is indeed my joy !



ohh, here we go again !!



wht else but, peace y'all !



she gets all comfortable, see the desktop, see my lappy ? now thats mylovergirl !



this is very very rare, but yeahh.



first look at the time, its 7.41 pm !
im still able to take down notes !
hehehehehesh ^^



so much for the nice hair ! /:



representing seg club !



we went home being winners. (:



they say, family :D

goodnight y'all.
i need a better week.
/:

ytd night was a blast.
after being all tipsy,
i manage to have a few great dance.
move ya body the way it flows baby.
* ohh girl, can she dance !
* so tell me again, why arent you in foreign bodies ?



he pulled it off.
he pressed the emergency stop button.
i dint knw hw to react.
cold shivers ran thru me.
and i tried to get back to slp.
it was so darn tough.
i made the day go very quickly.
hurried thru the day and got very busy.
and had no time to think of whats happening.
i dint wana think just yet.
and even until nw, it haven gotten to the heart just yet.

now you tell me that everything would be oky.
/:

tht line came frm hafiza.
nyehhhs, we had so much fun.
imagine frm borders, we moved to wisma's starbucks,
then to shaw tower's starbucks and finally to lido's mac.
just 3 of us, so much covered.
bitchfest or so you may call it.

earlier today, i had my ISG.
interschoolgames !
it was frigging hot.
i ran 2 events, brought home 2 medals.
hahahahahahahahahahs.
one silver one bronze.
^^

also earlier today,
i met ppl who happily graduated.
i met gf after so long ((:
and the bullying got worst.
i was trashed ohh so damn badly.

all in all i had a nice wednesday.
so much for it being a 100th.
/:

i need kakdee veryveryvery badly.
and i mean very badly.

but i dun wana wake her up.
/:
its almost three am now.
fuckshit.

the three of us !



yet another one !



shit head, i was figuring out how the hell this machine works ! hehhh



yours truly :D



i had fun, just a good dosage of new friends.
a tinge of love everywhere else.
and the late nite satay.
it was awesome ! :D

i love my girls !



somewhat everybody ! :D



the nonsense five !



almost high ! ^^



the best captured ! :D
victoria drinking icelemontea, ohh maybe !

i met alot and i mean alot of new friends today.
i meet zee and nadiah after 1728662623087years !
hehehehes, pretty girls only have grown prettier.
she will zipped all the pictures and i'll upload.
i had my bimbo moment, i wanted to take a grp
photo of them, i dint open the casing of the lens.
hehhhhhhh, i love you zee and adah !

i met mar, short for mary or mardhiah !
hothothothot, it was veryvery random
and headed to laupasat for supper.
darn was she cute, she fought and had a mini
battle w the ayam ! hehehehe,
( hides under skirt ! )

this is the hothot girl im talking about ! :D
sweethunn **

im not gonna lie and fake a smile.
im not gonna let the whole world think im oky.
and just so you knw, im not expecting this.
neither am i prepared to face any of this.

had my fair share of crying the whole of ytd.
walking ard w those stupid puffy jiggly small eyes.
and to see them giving me the encouraging smile,
telling me its oky to cry everything out.
i thank them for wanting to be there for me.

my world came to a halt,
its almost a dead end now.
i need to run,
to somewhere only i know.
i dont want to do smtg just to please others.
its time i think about my rights.

so tdy, after ending the forever never ending classes.
i met kak dee ( my anti-depressant pill )
we catch movie at amk hub.
it was veryveryvery nice.
'what happen at vegas', it made me smile and laf alot.
then we had our icecream at yishun swensens.
thankyou so much kak dee for all youve done.
^^ the bestest ! heehees, no more cockroaches
no more cheat my feelings hand games please.
or infact any other game tht ure better at !
yknw there was one saturday, where i just told her
i needed her for lunch, thou she had smtg on.
she came down yishun and had cheeseprata first, right after,
we had chicken rice !! then she brought me to the arcade
and i had so muchh fun, then to nebo club, those games !
thankyou so muchh kak dee ! ^^


red rangers,i think !

i love my kak dee ^^

she makes me smile liddat !

and therfore this is from ADAH, NADIAH !

Game rules:
A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.
B. These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
gahh, prolly start cursing and swearing thn erms, getting all violent emotionally. ^^

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
canada, for you and me. ^^

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
ntg big and massive. just a dinner by the night breeze of the beach.

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
very muchhh

5. What's your ideal lover like?
^^ you think?

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
loving someone, as it gives us a sense of happiness knowing we could love someone this much.
its so nice to be loving someone, accepthing them for their very own. and loving them more coz
of their flaws ! ^^

7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
i can try ^^

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
whts a secret, remind me?

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
hehhh, i like cirlces and not triangles !

10. What do you want most in life?
happiness ^^

11. Happiness, define tht word ? ( i came up w this qn ! )
its whn you see the ppl closest to your heart smile, you'll feel smtg and
thts what i call happiness. :D

12. Is family your everything?
well, almost. (:

13. Who is currently the most important person(s) to you?
wanzhen, ayu, kakdee, norani, shidadada, nananana, kak imahh, and sweetloveBOYFRIEND !

14. What kind of person do you think you are ?
a veryveryvery happy cheerful girl !

15. Why be cheerful ? ( i came up w this too ! )
the feeling of being happy is veryvery nice !

16. If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do/how would you react?
he is not worth to be my secret crush anymore ! hahahahahah

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
almost. giving all and to be cheated, why bother right. so i go for almost !

18. If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
tht one very person, LB.

19. What type of friends do you like?
the kind tht i have now. refer to qn 13 !

20. Friends .... ( finally, i came up w the last ! )
friends are those who share their world w you. and it goes two ways.

therefore i TAGGGG ; AYU.FATFAT.FILZA.FIZA.GF.SALMAH.SHAF.WANZHEN

i love this.
i love fatfat.
:D

HAPPY 3RD MONTHSARY BABYLOVE !

dontflytobangkokcan?
/:

The forest dense.
The terrain, unforgiving.
Often there's not even a pathway.
Sometimes even going off the beaten track.

( you can actually really hear the heart breaks )

totally hurt.
i mean, i was always there for you.
and you just had to go ytd night w/o telling me.
yes you were angry and pissed and everythng.
but i was clueless. i was even thinking..
ohh she slept thru the night coz she was tired.
wtfuck. what do you take me for?
and today is my happy happy friday.
you just had to text at nine thirtyone AM.
you even got pissed at me for being angry.
why dont you tell me now tht ive no right.
ive no right over you at all.
ive no right to even get angry at you.
you should have seen the expression after reading your
nine thirtyone AM text.
how i pushed my breakfast tray away.
how i slop deeper down into the chair.
how fucking disappointed i am.
youre very much like the ex?
tell me you forgt to text and inform me.
tell me if was a last min thing
tht taking 30 secs of your time to text me was a sin.
straight to my face and i'll leave.

am i the last thing tht you ever thought about?

/:
i was so affected earlier today.
i hate you, who judge and stereotype.
anyways im in love w my hair !
yesyesyes. its blooody short on one side.
another w my frindge !
call me crazy, and no im nt a butch.
hahahahahahahaha :D wthh i knw.

i was very much taken aback. i dint knw where tht came frm. but yeahh. i suck at this. i suck at explaining anything in the whole entire world. dont ask me to do anything. stop questioning me. and my hair has ntg to do w whtever we were talking. yes it short but it doesnt dertermine my orientation. please please. its just hair.

ive everything else in the world. but i realise ive lost you. well i should have expected this aye? i mean why try anymore. friends should never be replaced. and i remind myself to never find a replacement, morever for you. wht we had was special. just look at the amt of folders, our pictures, plenty of them.one after another. the smiles.those extra silly moments. and just almost everything we could cry and smile and bitch about. and ive hardcopies of our pictures in my wallet. tht shall stay there and im not planning to keep it aside. im happy to see it from time to time. but i was hoping there would be a proper way to do this. it gets to a point where we both are imperceptible, the feelings all numb after the Anaesthesia jab maybe? i dint knw it'll pull us so far, girl hw i wish we still had the whole world to ourself. one moment taking off our school skirts to dance in the corners of the hall or those dusty rooms. or our friday st socca w the bigbig slurpeee walking home after a tiring week. maybe someday..

goodmorning everyone. hehh, i wrote kak dee a letter tdy, and to see her smile was the nicest feeling. tht warm warm nice smile w plenty of love. i miss GF ! i cant wait for monday, where i'll get to see my usual bunch of happy pills ! it was shaf's first day in school, ohh girl was she trilled. hahahaahha.it just very heartwarming to see them smiling back at me. knowing they always will be ard. they that actually mattered. i'll give up my world to share it w you, anytime. geeez, true friends stay, really they do. i'll share even my last bit of kinderbueno w you oky. ( if youre a true friend, you knw hw much kinder means to me ! hahahahahahahaha )

boyfriend been the nicest.
this week, he got me a dress, a pink top andand, eastpak bag !
im a lucky lucky girl.
i love you, sweetlove.
its the 3rd now !
lets start our fourthhhh sooon !

saya rindu kamu /:
why do we have to let go.
sometimes i wonder.
good things come to an end.
wtf did good things even have to start then?
/:

Labels: the messed up mind

I DO NOT KNW HOW TO EXPRESS THIS.
I REPEAT, I DO NOT KNW HOW.

THE GOODDAMN DOOR'S CLOSED.

should i try again?
not everyone deserves second chances. /:

was suppose to meet somewht everyone at 9am at harbourfrnt.
and thus i was suppose to meet GF at yishun at 815am.
and i just had to wake up at 8. hahahahahaha :D
kakdee and her two friends were veryvery late.
fatfat had to wait for nana for an hour.
altogether, there was 7 of us :D
while waiting for kak dee and two of her friends.
fatfat and i practically shopped for breakfast.
we got macgriddles, to kfc for american breakfast wrap, then to subway for cookies.
kak dee bought meegoreng and nasi ayam penyet.
i brought brownies. imagine the amount of food.
we randomly decides to kayak.
( whtver we paid was worth the funnn )
it was truckloads of funn.
after alot of tanning and eating and swimming and bitching and beach volley and abit of soccer, we left for luge ride.
hehhhhh (:
( listen up to this )
i went up to the crew of the luge, and asked for my cuzin.
and he asked me why, so i said my cuzin was suppose to give me discount.
so he went to the counter and returned w a complimentary family ride.
thus it was [ FAMILY RIDE FOR 8, FOC ]
hahahahahahahahahaha :D
all 7 of us had it free.
thts not all. after the first round of luge ride,
this time it was my cuzzin, who gave us another round of luge ride.
we had so much funnnnnn.
details of luge ride, GF was terrified totally to the max.
hahahahah, we actually saw her froze and then shivers up the skyride.
GF, its oky. youre pretty much safe at home now.
editing picstures !
we headed home after dinner at imseahh foodcenter.
with nana fat fat and i eating beef noodle.
( all time favourite ! )
i enjoyed every moment with them.
they really are my bunch of happy pills.



white or purple, both (:


i go ahhhh, LUGE !


she likes to take pics of my legs !


kakdee and fatfat, loves !


nanananananaana and qimmmm la !


somewht everyone w/o GF and nana !


they are MY HAPPYPILLS ! :D

qim ; go find a new piglet laaa !
him ; dont want, later not as piglety as you !
ive a veryvery annonying boyf. hahahahahhas.
he could have said 'no other piglets to replace you'.
but instead, wht did he reply?
im suchaaaa piglet i knw. hahahahahahahahaha :D

ive been working alot apparently.
they haven got enuff staff.
( promoting madjack, join our crew, we have alotalot of funnn ! )
apart frm tht, been seeing my happypills.
went shesha, damnn it was awesome.
GF was pretty muchh high just after a very short while in sahara.
denying every ounce she has left,
she said she is slpy thus the sloopy eyes !
fatfat was extremely chaotic, prolly becoz we had alot to talk.
she gets high high and high ! (:
kak dee and nana, very much loved !
hehehes. thankyou love for tht veryveryvery great night.
EACH ONE OF YOU IS TRULY MUCHH ADOREDD ! :D

( im seeing them in 3 hours, beach beach beachhh, sun sand sea and plenty of hot girls maybe. ilovethem ! )

whts stopping you,
im right here
just an arm's length away.
all you had to do was reach.
pull me close, and somehw
our worlds would meet this time.
were you blinded, i hope not.
i'll be here thru out the whole ordeal.
tell me whn youve realise.
'hey, she's the one for me'