Psychology. the coexistence within an individual of positive and
negative feelings towards the same person, object, or action, simultaneously drawing one in opposite directions.
Yeah, thinking about it. How can one person be ambivalent ? It made no sense.

Sometimes, Most of the times. i think that life is unfair.
For its many uncertainty,
&all the unanswered doubts and dubiety.
In a complex situation, one could react on impulse.
Especially anger, being indignant doesnt mean
you have all the rights in the world to do as you please.
But then again, if being indignant means to shut up,
why feel that way in the first place.
Ive seen people around me move on.
Moved on too fast that leaves everyone in dismay.

They react on impulse, making them an impetuous person.
Issit immoral to just take a step back,
and do some reflective thinking ?
Rather thn being impetuous, think about others.
Others closest to you, the ones who were there for you,
right from the very beginning.

Ive heard many saying and voicing out their feeling of neglect.
How very disappointed they are w you.
Haven you realise anything amiss.
Well, if youve found your kind of friends.
Especially them, who make you happiest.
Im here to congratulate you, w a hug.
That same hug that we started as, being friends.
Im very sure i missed you /:

( to writting that, i was contemplating )


LB, youve moved on.
too far away now.
its abit tad too painful to
knw how well youve proceeded.
you taught me a different kind of love altogether.
thankyou (:

campcampcamp.
ELITES.
it was tough.
i ran like never before.
imagine having to report at 5am for PT.
you wouldnt wana knw the distance we ran.

so im back to school tmr.
and i guess, nyehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
dead busy all over again /:

Last paper at 2pm.
and i think its the toughest somehow.
but its oky.

ive to report for camp by 6pm tdy.
legs arms back all aching due to ytd's
fitness ( endurance )
i'll be gone for the weeekend.
huhu, wht a way to spent the weekend before
school next week.

dearkakdee, hehhhhhhh.
lets not make this sappy corny nor cheeky ^^ i'll miss you like budak giler tak btul. go catch up w anna plenty oky. andand, this time, i'll really be away the whole weekend. well, even if you wished too hard. unless ive some disease, not being able to participate for camp, i'll go home and meet you oky ? hahahahahahahhahahaha. i wanted to write you a letter, but i was thinking of ways to pass it to you, i was also thinking of posting it, but you'll get it only whn i back. so defeats the whole purpose right. meantime, you can read wht you have, those in your wallet. but dont read in train rides or in public, they think youre spastic. ( i'll love you anyway ) ohhh and we'll see if i come training on monday w/o any voice. due to keeping quiet too much. hahahahahhahahahahahah. camps, quiets. wrong combination. see,i can even go on and on here. and i laf and talk to much, ( rahh thinks so too ) ( sheeesh ) go on and smile like budak giler tak btul.see, tht wide smile. go look at all my silly stupid belo pictures and smile thruout the weeeekend ! heeeeeeeeeees, takekaire :D

hello WANZHENLOVERGIRL, now please knw that i love you like ( insertwordhere )

so What would you do if you werent afraid ?
I would love to my heart's content.

I dnot like to be disappointed. Not at all.

BLOG INVASION!

Hello lovergirl(: Y'know i love you to the max? :P Heheh, even though you're so NOT cute and adorable, i swear i'll still be the one for you! So stop flirting around with others, and focus on me. I'm your one and only girlf cum boyf, your everything. So Qim's admirers, backoff! Cos' she's attached to me, and only me. Yesyes, swear i'm possessive. Hawhaw!

P.S. I Love You!

Yours truly,
Wanzhen(:

SummerSunflower.

Just look at how pretty it is.
Its directly smiling at you.

I hate reality.
Its superficial,
crooked world /:

maths was, crack brains, lets scribble smtg.
oky no, it wasnt that bad.

ive lost friends,
and i swear its sucky.
coz its smtg we can never control.
ohhh wells, she seems happy.
and its becoz of her, that we stopped our sundays.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzt /:

on another note, sometimes i blame starhub for miss-placing your texts.
but lets not be too positive, sometimes you never text at all.
i should see it coming, goshhhh. i was looking foward to see you.
oky, moving on. i shall not think too much.

kakdee ohh kakdee ohh kakdee ohh kakdee.
go on and smile like budak giler and make my day.
like hw you ALWAYS do (:

i do not like to be disappointed, not at all.
goodnight y'all /:

tinkerbell (:



(:

huhu, its saturday.
Cleo's bikini photoshoot at sentosa !
huhuhuhuhuhu^^

im mugging now, and rararahh is accompanying me.
she is mugging for her papers too.
she is taking her As this year.
super adorable, hw can i get her off my mind to study mechanical design.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzt /:

special hello to CC.
huhu, whts going on la seh.
run and hug run and hug !
oky hides under mar's skirt.
:D

tht is my comot aniq.
and i swear he makes me smile so much.
and ignore the bra.
(:

yesterday night was stupid and sucky. and yes, that made me cried. thats how disappointed i am w you. totally, period.
( yknw what careless words can do ? they can pierce right thru like a stabbing knife that flies across the room at 216km/hr and slice thru the very fragile heart. and careless words can hurt more that anything else. because you were spose to be in the right state of mind, being absolutely sane, well done you )

new friends are much love,
but lets not be obsessed.
there is this super duper cute girl.
lets call her rararahh.
hehehes, thankgod she is intellectual and smart.
the on going conversation made me smile, plenty.
^^ she thinks qimmo is cute. ( well instead of qimmy that is )
zzzzzzzzzt /:

i miss aisyah, yes aisyah, the very weird girl studying visual comm in nyp. ( wait, visual ? can you even visualise anything? ) hehehehehs. yes that same aisyah that i absolutely adore. hahahahahas. that claims she eats too much and thus having to go yishun park to jog/struggled thru a 3km route. i swear she thinks too much.( dear girl, dnot kill me upon reading this )thinking of her makes me smile and laf like budak giler belo tak betul. i wana see her, its been more than two weeks. so much for surprising me w breakfast, whn you text me almost at eleven. what kind of breakfast is that ? hahahas, aisyah, youre super mysterious, please dnot go missing otherwise, ive to call in the cops to have frequent checks on you. ohh yknw wht, i love you all the same. nothing lesser. (: so appear under my block whn i get home tdy ? hehehehehehehs (:

( i wana be your favourite girl (: )


i dont like wht ive been hearing.
everyone knws everybody.
its very complicated.
i want to stay to where everything started.
yes, meeting new friends are total loves.
but then again, gahhhhh.
imiss noraini and danny veryvery badly.

anna came to school, i met her again at night.
and gosh, im in love w tht girl.
just as annoying as i am.
hahahahaha :D

my monday.

im going kl tmr.
leaving spore at noon.
im not really dreading this.
neither am i looking foward.
im so gonna miss the dearest ppl.

this will be a shortshort trip i hope.
the next time you come back to read again,
i might be back. hehehes.

im gonna miss you you you you and you.
so all of you, pls takekaire oky ?
iloveloveloveloveyou !

and if youre wondering,
im am very much contented w life now.
im am sure of what i am.
there is no doubt about it.
i rather you ask me then sneak ard asking others.
:D

ohhh Girls and Drama.
(:












ps ; enjoy these faces while im gone ! heheheheheh
yours truly :D

i had work tdy, after so long.
andand, 3 extremely nice girls came to pick me up !
i was super happy can.
i was alrdy looking foward to training.
and to see these three girls !
:D

kak imah (:



nanananananananananananananana (:



kakdee (:


yes, the three of them came down to jalan kayu.
and kakdee and kak imah were from school,
so we headed back to school eagerly for training !
:D tell me if i need more reasons to go for training !
ilovethem threee :D

someone came w a sunflower for me tdy.
some random apek sang me a burfday song.
coz he thot it was my burfday, w me carrying sunflower !
so i met new friends today.
both of them w their slengeh antics !

lala !


pretty mel !


areyou !


yours truly (x


:D

ohh, the adventurous ride!
the three of us headed to pulau ubin to explore the island.
we were pretty disappointed as it rain pretty heavily.
but after awhile, we decided to go on,
arming ourself w ponchos. hahahahaha :D
we had so much fun, the best part of it all
was this one stretch of rocky path.
we overtook one big group of teenagers uphill,
and the slope to end it w was awesome !























ps ; i brought bananaboat lotion, thinking im gonna get home TANNED ! /:

"Everything we do is a choice. Oatmeal or cereal. Highway or side streets. Kiss her or keep her. We make choices and we live with the consequences. If someone gets hurt along the way we ask for forgiveness. It’s the best anyone can do."

taken from ____'s blog.
this is the same girl that makes me laf non-stop.
with all her antics, she is just so comical/goofy.
i wana see her ard in school more please.

( hello world ! )

Leave a tag here and I'll;
1. Tell you why I befriended you.
2. Associate you with a song / movie.
3. Tell a random fact about you.
4. Tell a first memory about you.
5. Associate you with an animal / fruit.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7. In return, you must post this in your own Blog.

iloveyou, youknowwho !
:D ( makes stupid faces ! )

i'll flood this entry w alot of pictures.






























we had a very nice picnic (:

Why do you judge. Lets go public. If youre unsure of my orientation/sexuality, do approach me. Dont make any assumptions from what you see. If youre not comfortable w anything, dont tell me. Im a much happier person now. Therefore youre no one to judge. So much for you wanting to see me happy, youre never encouraging are you. We love and we learn. Isnt that the whole point of love and life. Rather than be superficial/plastic/fake, im better of like this. I cant stop something i barely started. Its still very new to me, let me have a worthwhile ride meantime. Its something i never imagined, neither you, if youve known me your whole life. Im sorry i turned out this way. You should see me smile now. It has never been this bright. Not even close to this, i never knew i could be this happy. If youre w me, in this path, i'll take your hand and off we go baby. Somewhere far far away, where the greenery is orange, the skies shades of pink, rainbows are the colour of skittles, clouds in purple hover ard, butterflies sings for us, to where we have nothing to worry about (:


( im not ending that paragraph w a fullstop, period )

sometimes i wish things would go MY way.

now whn i realise, ive always had her.
she was just a call away.
iloveyou nurhafiza !

YESTERDAY WAS SUNDAY.
i was at chuachukang ( nssl ) at 715am.
yes, that early.
so there was kakdee, shidadadada, nanananana, sly, filza.
it was frigging hot but we had fun.
we headed to bugis for lunch at tongseng.
we each have our very desired meals.
( hungry mcm nak rak ! )
headed to marina square for starbucks, fatfat, pool !
( and this very cute boy who made my icehazelnutchocolate )

we had a crucial match. ( issit even called match )
we fought till the end okyy, not giving up at all.
it was a tough one, and fatfat and i lost. /:
we almost had to strip. /:

( i always steal the pictures frm shidadada's blog )

she likes to take pictures like this.


i am that tired that i slept frm cck to town !!



they say im special. hehehehe ^^



yes at bugis. the girl who kept being left behind !



ilovethemgays ! :D



GFily :D
nanananananannananaana and fatfat, can you hear me shouting ily across frm yishun all the way to houngang ?
kakdee, do you need kepastian. heheheheheheh ^^
how ever much they bully me.
they leaving me ard alone,
( i got lost frm them THRICE ytd ! )
forever calling me slengeh and making me the victim,
ilovethem more than you can ever imagine.
period :D


so on saturday i had my madrasah camp.
gahhhh, i cant blief im done w it.
they are so close to my heart.
i'll hate my sundays w/o them.
sheeeeeeeesh.
today's soccer was goood.
i could feel the fats being burnt !
hehehehehehehehehehehheehehheeh :D
goodnight y'all !